Games that adults play

 
One afternoon, I must have been five or six years old, my playmates came by and one took me aside to the maize field to show me what a man in her home had been doing to her. She carried a pack of sugar that a man who had been defiling her gave her as a price for the game that he played with her and for her silence. She asked me to lie on my back as she demonstrated what this man did and made me promise never to tell anyone. This went on for a while and I just remember feeling sick each time my friend came by and took me away to demonstrate, the last time being when she invited our other friends to watch us demonstrate and we were closed up in my mother’s house and the lady who looked after us when my mother was in school found us playing this dangerous game and beat us up and to my relief i think that was the last time this girl did her demonstration on me .I do not remember the name or face of this girl who might have been slightly older or same age as me but I remember the activities so vividly, I guess my young mind recorded them so deeply.

We moved homes but within the same teachers compound for the school. An older male from our neighbour's home gave me plenty of attention that I had never received from any male before. This man was actually interested to play with me and would single me out each time I was playing with my buddies and it felt good to be finally chosen compared to the man in a blue car who never chose me. 

One afternoon while I was at the neighbours playing, this man as usual chose to play with me alone and away from my friends. Of course I felt special and the two of us went to play and kept on it till everyone had left. What I specifically remember about this day is that, rules of the game changed the moment everyone left. He said we will throw ball while seated and he asked that whoever scores will have to move towards the loser while sitting and when one meets the loser to let our private areas kiss. He let me win each game and I moved towards him all the time and being small and tiny, i would find myself in-between his legs and feeling so scared and somehow knew that this was wrong. I threw the ball away from the designated game area and run to pick it and decided then to run home but told no one about it.